Why am I hiding?

The fifth chapter of Acts opens with a story of a husband and wife who sold a piece of property to bring money to the apostles, but both kept some money back for themselves. When asked about it they both lied to Peter and to God and they subsequently fell down and died. Now reading this it was so easy to think so poorly of these people. How could they keep money back from God? They were living in the time right after Christ walked the earth. They had the disciples with them daily! 

But then God asked me, in 2015, to look in the mirror and see if I was really any different. Money is such a tangible thing to hide from God but how many non-tangible things do I try and "hide" from Him every day? (and hide is in quotes because I do truly believe that God is all knowing but I also believe that He desires for us to come to Him) My desire to be in a relationship? Fear of the future? Family issues? Anger at God over sick loved ones? Frustration?So yes it was easy for me to look down on Ananias and Sapphira but that makes me just as much of a hypocrite, and really I don't desire to hide anything from the Lord, but I'm human and so sometimes I try too. 

This next chapter in my life has no set plan, no design. College has four years, four years that I had planned by the middle of my first semester. And God even there you showed me that you had a better plan, from withdrawing from a class, to the number of professor that encouraged me in my faith. Yet, there will be things in this next chapter that I will want to hide or not talk to God about, whether it be work, or just how I'm feeling. And so my prayer is that He will remind me, and continue to place people in my life that remind, that I do not face this next chapter alone. That whether I have nothing to give, or everything like Ananias and Sapphira, he wants it all. The good, the bad, and the ugly, to be cliche. Or my favorite new phrase, the joy, junk, & Jesus* of everyday. 

*Joy, Junk, and Jesus is similar to highs and lows. It's the joy in your day, the junk or the low part, and where you saw Jesus. It helps us to remember our blessings, not to hide even the dark side we may not want to show, and bring it all back around to the Lord